I wrote this monologue just for a bit of fun, imagining it as a scene out of a play, somewhere near the end.
When I was writing the song Orbiting I used the idea of space travel as a metaphor for the changes/events people go through in life - both good and bad, that can seperate us from others, espaically those we were once close to. This is me continuing to explore that idea in a different way.
"SPACE BETWEEN US" (A Monologue)
"You want to know where I've been?"
He sits down.
"Well, I spent some time on Mars, yeah the planet. I needed a break from all the goddamn advertising and from television shows, bus timetables. So, I booked my flight and left early one morning - you we're probably still sleeping. It's not as far away as you'd think. Sure, it's lonely, but I'm a loner, right? So didn't so much bother me. Obviously you wouldn't like that, but it was good for me. It's beautiful out there, space is, well, there's no advertising billboards to ignore for starters and I never had to please no-one cause no one was there. So that's where I went and that's what I did. Cleared my mind. Strange though how much I missed you. sometimes I'd wish that we could connect, you know? Me and you, long distance call between planets, but I knew better, I wouldn't have been able to find the words... wouldn't have made the distance, you know what I mean? Bad connection or something like that. Strange though how much I wished I could have found the words and picked up the phone. Yeah, there's phones out there, just no one ever uses them because they don't know what to say. I didn't know what to say either, I suppose I would have just gone on about how wonderful the view was from my deck chair, pitched it to you. Better I was alone. People have said to me that I'm a loner, I mean it's definitely been said to me before, by who I can't remember - it might even have even been you. I rarely listened to anyone. See that's why I needed to go away, I think that's a big reason why right there. Anyway, they - or you - are right. Turns out I like space to be on my own. When I left earth I couldn't have said any of this, none of it would have formed properly in my head for me to have said it aloud. I think I needed solitude to focus on what my mind is trying to tell me. Now I can say what I'm thinking and I finally understand what you mean to me, but trouble is - now we've both changed and you can't see me for who I am right now. I went all the way to Mars to clear my mind and I've come back to earth to you, but there's space between us. Ain't that a kick it the head?
AdVeNtUrEs iN PlAyLiSt - EmMa LoUiSe
In the days leading up to my first listen of Emma Louise's album Vs Head Vs Heart, I was looking for something new to listen to. To tell you the truth, I actually hate to look for music like I hate to look for a new book, I prefer for them to find me and then bowl me over good and proper.
This album really did just that, it's beautiful! Emma Louise's voice is so very soulful. I'm not one for critiquing because I know what that feels like when it's done to me and even though I know it has its purpose, I struggle with it all the same. So I will simply say - try it, see if it fits you well. It does me.
I'm posting my current favourite track called Mirrors, that's sure to change from day to day (or week to week) but the reason why I love this song, I think, is because of the way the groove and EL's voice seem to dance in a way that feels both intimate and warm yet blue-light-disco. It has an 80's feel to it (that I'm loving) and reminds me of the kind of song that I used to listen to late at night when I was young and supposed to be asleep. I'd lie staring out my bedroom window and allow my mind to wander the skies under the influence of a song like this one. Oh, to be young again. I'm sitting here writing this in my office-nook late at night... I think I'll turn my chair around, kill the desk light and let the window bleed my mind a while and I'll listen to it just one more time for tonight (thanks Emma).