Those who know me well know that I am a BIG fan of writer Donna Tartt. Her book The Secret History was absolutely one of the best books I have ever read, I loved every word written. So I was delighted, to say the least, when my dear partner Lou gave me Donna Tartt's new (well it was new at that stage) book called THE GOLDFINCH. I'm not going to tell you anything about this book except to say that it's brilliant and you should go now (off you go) and buy it and read it, the experience will overwhelm you in the best possible way.
Even though I finished reading the book a few weeks ago, the characters continue to live in my mind and Isn't that just right there the sign of a book that connects right to your heart? I'm nodding my head up and down - yes. So off you go, treat yourself to a new book.
I wrote this monologue just for a bit of fun, imagining it as a scene out of a play, somewhere near the end.
When I was writing the song Orbiting I used the idea of space travel as a metaphor for the changes/events people go through in life - both good and bad, that can seperate us from others, espaically those we were once close to. This is me continuing to explore that idea in a different way.
"SPACE BETWEEN US" (A Monologue)
"You want to know where I've been?"
He sits down.
"Well, I spent some time on Mars, yeah the planet. I needed a break from all the goddamn advertising and from television shows, bus timetables. So, I booked my flight and left early one morning - you we're probably still sleeping. It's not as far away as you'd think. Sure, it's lonely, but I'm a loner, right? So didn't so much bother me. Obviously you wouldn't like that, but it was good for me. It's beautiful out there, space is, well, there's no advertising billboards to ignore for starters and I never had to please no-one cause no one was there. So that's where I went and that's what I did. Cleared my mind. Strange though how much I missed you. sometimes I'd wish that we could connect, you know? Me and you, long distance call between planets, but I knew better, I wouldn't have been able to find the words... wouldn't have made the distance, you know what I mean? Bad connection or something like that. Strange though how much I wished I could have found the words and picked up the phone. Yeah, there's phones out there, just no one ever uses them because they don't know what to say. I didn't know what to say either, I suppose I would have just gone on about how wonderful the view was from my deck chair, pitched it to you. Better I was alone. People have said to me that I'm a loner, I mean it's definitely been said to me before, by who I can't remember - it might even have even been you. I rarely listened to anyone. See that's why I needed to go away, I think that's a big reason why right there. Anyway, they - or you - are right. Turns out I like space to be on my own. When I left earth I couldn't have said any of this, none of it would have formed properly in my head for me to have said it aloud. I think I needed solitude to focus on what my mind is trying to tell me. Now I can say what I'm thinking and I finally understand what you mean to me, but trouble is - now we've both changed and you can't see me for who I am right now. I went all the way to Mars to clear my mind and I've come back to earth to you, but there's space between us. Ain't that a kick it the head?